I think for Valentines Day I am going to re-join Plenty Of Fish and torture myself with that whole thing again. My doctor mentioned it, lmao - saying how that's a full time job in and of itself. Which is true, I just don't - shocker - have the motivation. I keep thinking that maybe Dan and I will get together, I mean, he shows interest but he doesnt? If that makes sense. And it's been too fucking long trying to figure out the nothing really that there is though. I feel bad, but I just can't do it. He has like ZERO indicators. If he had any indicators, I could maybe throw out a hint or something for him to run with, but nope. Nothing. So annoying/aggravating. We're probably better just as friends anyway I'd guess. We get along but don't really have many similar interests other than band, it seems like. He's a workaholic and stuff too, which is fine and all - but it's a parks and rec town job which kinda weirds me out for some reason. I don't know. Like is he just gonna do that forever? Who knows. Blah. Anyway. So yeah. Might be time for that, ugh. I'd do OkCupid, I would, but everyone on there is such a sketchball (at least in my area). That, or I get just super creeped out when people I actually know but definitely don't wanna date show up. I HATE DATING GUYS. WHYYYY.
Anyway. I'm gonna go eat a grapefruit, watch Suits, then read (the Death Cure - which I can't handle guys, really, I'm too attached to certain characters and that scares the shit out of me cuz bad stuff keeps happening - is anyone else reading this? ahhhhhh no) for way too long and then go to work at 8am. Yep. Sounds good. Hope everyone is doing well! I'm always around if anyone wants to chat via threads or messages or whatever. So feel free. I'll talk to you all later! <3
PS: As a happier note I will say that my checkup went really well. My doctor praised my health and called my skin perfect, even asked if I used anything special for it (which I really don't). So that boosted my ego a little. I guess I should find something other than health to worry about now, ugh.